Thursday, July 16, 2009

Changes :(







Changes...I have always believed that for the most, I accept them as they come. In the next days I will have more changes at one time...a test to remind me "That I can Accept".
Tomorrow, Gabi and Dan will leave for Minnesota. After a quick visit at a family reunion, Dan will head to Iowa to take part in a one week bike ride across Iowa. Him and several of our home town buddies do this each year. New on the agenda...he's leaving our baby in Minnesota for that week :( We have never left her..since she was born, one of us has always been with her. Gabi will be in Minnesota with Dan's family...they are great people and I know she is going to have a great great time, but she is will be 1000 miles from me and hundreds from her daddy. My anxiety level is pretty high..but we will get through it.
In 4 days, Shurie, my wonderful grown daughter will take her two little girls Jilli & Emma and move back to Colorado. Bittersweet :) :( Their hubby/daddy will be returning from Iraq after serving his 3rd tour..gone a year watching his little girls grow through a computer monitor. Their family being back together is the greatest and most important thing......Now my selfishness comes in...Ah these two little girls are the greatest things in the world. In the year they have been with us we have watched Emma go from just laying on the floor "silent" to running, laughing, singing, talking, climbing, throwing things, toting the cats, swimming and just loving everyone. What a personality! Emma sings "Rock-A-Bye, Rock-A-Bye..the cutest thing EVER! Her tempertantrums to kissy kissy.....Jilli, wow! Her personality ranges from one second laughing to the next, her cry will make you believe she was hit by a car. Jilli loves to read, write, spell, color, play games and runs around with so much energy you would swear we have batteries in her back. She has to kiss and hug EVERYONE goodbye..if not she will cry about it forever. Jilli's smile and laugh will draw anyone in, yet her cry can make you run. What will we do not having these little girls here everyday.....Watch them grow on the computer monitor. Most of all, watching my daughter leave this nest again :( Mind you, this is not the first time we have experienced this, but it never comes easier. I have loved having her home, doing things for her, hearing her call my name from the other room..each time remindng me so much of the little girl that use to do that so long ago...I will miss this so much...but I am going to visit them in Sept..YAH!
Within the next week, my oldest son Bear an his family will be moving..only 2 hours away, but I have loved having them just down the street. Three more grandchildren are amoungest this family..Cameron, Kaydence and Jessalynn... I dont spend each day with them, most times a couple of times a month. I will miss them no less, their curly hair and big blue eyes..laughing, seeing what they a can get into and just so dang entertaining.
I am so Thankful that my grown children can make the choices that it takes for them to move ahead in life, it just saddens me to not have them within yelling distance :)
I am very proud of all of my family and love them all so much...but PLEASE..no more changes :))