Thankful for my Gabi

I am oh so Thankful for my Gabi. Paige had gone to the dentist today, as she was having her exam she was chatting with the dental assistant and just stated that she had to go get her little sister when she left there, the assistant stated "OH your parents had an "OOPS" baby"....after Paige told me that I thought to myself how sad for a child to be considered that. My Gabi was chosen, Dan and I were foster parents for CPS, Gabi came into our care on August 2, 2001 being only one day old, she was addicted to crack cocaine and one of the most lovely little babies I had ever seen. Dan & I chose to be foster parents with the hope, God willing we would adopt a child.........Gabi is that child, her adoption was final January 16, 2003 one of the greatest days of my life...Our Gabi was "Chosen"! When she was learning to walk she had to stop and smell all the flowers, I believe that was her way of saying "slow down mommy" it seemed my life was fast and hectic..but she made me see it so different. When she was a toddler she ran and laughed nearly constantly. Hiding, rocking with her daddy, coloring and always singing...loving the nustic (music). Today she is 7, we dont always see eye to eye, she is a daddy's girl like no other...I love the love they share. She is such a sweet young girl, sincere, companionate, dedicates to her mommy & daddy, independant, can be a smarty sometimes and at the same time is very loving. Gabi is a wonderful student, very smart and loves school. I am so thankful this precious little girl is my daughter and with her our family became complete.

How easy it is to be Thankful...

I have four wonderful kids, but today is my day to be thankful for Paige (my Shurie). I can look back at the past, her as a young girl..a momma's girl! For the most she never left my side, even as she became a teenager my thoughts mattered to her. She was concerned for my well being and wanted to protect me at my worst times.....I was thankful I always had someone with me, someone to talk to and someone to play with if I felt the need to be young again. I look at the present, her as a women, wife and mother. She sits with me till all hours of the night just chattin about nothin. She cooks for me if I so desire, she gets on to me when I am teaching Jillian things I really shouldn't ("L" on the forehead for Looser)..she fusses at me for not taking care of myself and then fusses at other people for disrespecting me. She is such a strong young women with so many dreams and yet she can still be my pouty, can I sit on your lap little girl. I look at the future, though we really dont know what the future holds....I still like to look at who my little girl will be. I know she will have the best little girls growing up because of the person Shurie is...determined, dedicated, patient when it matters, effectionate, loving and real. I know no matter what my future holds as growing old, she will take care of me, love me, respect me, protect me and never want me to go anywhere.................for all these things and more, I am so thankful for my Shurie

Times past

I stole this from my daughters blog..."Thanks Paige"

one minute ago...
reading blogs

one hour ago....
checking on Gabi, shifting the fire and playing here on the computer

one week ago.....
Mom and I were at the casino in Oklahoma.."Winning!"

one year ago.....
Chasing down Bear..trying to help him understand the responsiblities of being a grown man. Helping my mother cope with the loss of her husband. Preparing for our family trip to Colorado for Christmas with Paige and Mark.

three years ago...
Was a Paiges house, had moved her and Jilli's stuff back to Colorado so they could prepare for Mark to return from Iraq. Enjoying watching Gabi learn being in kindergarten. Lots of stress with home, clinic..just all together too many changes

five years ago.....
Paige was home visiting..Mark was,..yeah in Iraq. Finishing up with Gabi's potty training. Loving my new Van that I had recently bought. Dan was enjoying his first year of teaching at PJC

seven years ago....
Gabi had just been born...was loving our time with her! Paige was in her senior year, we were looking at colleges. Bear and his partner were expecting their first child, my first grandchild. My father in law passed away in Minnesota. Looking forward to my brother and his family coming from Chicago for the Holiday's

ten years ago....
Paige was 15, Bear 16, Tyler 7...wow! wondering what the future held

Its kindof fun to think back to what you were doing...some good, some bad......things you are so thankful you didnt forget and others you wish you could. There has been many ups and downs, but all in all I am so thankful for all that I have, Jesus Christ, my family, love, my life, my home, clothes on my back and food in my belly..and Starbucks of course ..I have had, I do have and sure I will continue to have a great life

In the middle of sadness

Today started out as any other day, then it seemed as though I was in the middle of sadness.... my mother and my oldest daughter both crying and sad today. Fifty years divide them with one commonality between them "Me"...a daughter to one and the mother to the other. Different personalities...regardless of differences they both love, desire companionship, hate doing things alone and longs for the family norm to be once again. Today Paige's sadness along with crying makes your heart break, she misses Mark so much, she misses her family unit, she misses her family, her home and spending time with their friends. It makes her so sad to do things without Mark....she traveled to her dads today, very sad that she did not have Mark to be with her and the girls. Then we head fifty years forward, my mother....sad, frustrated, and hates doing things alone..her husband died last year and as with any one that has gone through the loss of their spouse would know, it takes a very long time to get really going after it. She misses him so much, though she does not really share that, you can see it in her. Simple things upset her, simple things make her cry on days that she misses him so much. I guess my thought of this, though your related, though your spouse is not here..neither one can understand how the other feels...so that is when I become in the middle of sadness....I have experienced neither, I don't know their feelings, I don't know how to comfort either one..this brings me to sadness....I pray for time to fly for Paige and the girls so their daddy/husband hurries to get home...I am thankful my mother had a great man for herself and that she knows us kids are here for her in the best way we can be.......I love them both and will do all I can to help them through sad times, will do my best to make them smile. I am so Thankful for them both.

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